Seeing this practically broke my heart. A total homeschooling mommy fail! I failed as a mommy and as a teacher. I failed my daughter. These feelings have been plaguing me all day. My daughter has completely forgotten she even wrote that distressed S.O.S message to me in her math book just this morning, but it has been following me around, whispering to me...
you're not smart enough to teach...
you're not not doing it right...
you're messing up your kids...
they won't learn a single academic thing from you....
And then due to all my feelings of inadequacies, I was short with her the rest of the morning. Oh, how I have let her down. This funny, smart, sensitive and compassionate daughter, who challenges me to be a better mommy and teacher daily...and I fail to meet those challenges constantly.
At the end of my frustrating day, I sit back and I try to think what she needs. What is it that I must teach her..I look to Scripture to help me find what it is I need to equip her with. To my surprise, I did not see anything about Algebra, special blend sounds, cursive or state capitals...
This is what I found....
Teach her God's commandments- Deut. 6:6-7
Teach her to love Jesus - Matthew 22:37
Teach her to be a light -Matthew 5:14
Teach her to be a friend- Proverbs 18:24
This is what I want for her foundation! There is so much more to teach from Scripture that I want my girls to learn. The other things will come, bit by bit, in time. But my main focus needs to be teaching my girls to love Jesus, love others, kind words, laugh , be joyful....and
play and eat ice cream!
So my dear sweet daughter, mommy may not be very good at fractions and I don't know the capital of Turkey...but I will always love you. I promise to teach you and to show you God's Word because that is the foundation that will carry you through relationships, jobs, family and life. Always remember....
Jesus will never fail you.
